fari-ehsanz
14 July 2009 @ 11:57 pm





that black oil mark stained my fav dress tnx to ur herbie like car.
i love.

 
 
fari-ehsanz
13 July 2009 @ 10:43 pm






Someone pls tell me.That  i am making the right decisions..
You and your insecure mind. I wish it all wasnt true. It isnt true.

What am i suppose to do with you.

Where do we go from here.

What do i do.




 
 
Current Mood: confusedconfused
 
 
fari-ehsanz
04 July 2009 @ 11:56 pm




i didnt exactly know what made me do it, but yes im back. Im gonna get my ass kicked again.. ouch. 
June was a bitch. It didnt really went as planned. U get things u least expect.. And then the rest is for me to figure out. Much more or less, you tend to get the worst of everything. And it left u with no choices than to agree.

But eventually, u'd receive those little gestures that meant so much more..
So much more than what meets the eye. 

Ppl being misunderstood..
Seeing one's true colours.. 
Getting to know others..
So at the end of the day.. u'll still find oneself searching for answers and reasons to justify actions.
Thank u to all who had made me the psn i am today..

,forever n ever.

 

 
 
fari-ehsanz
25 June 2009 @ 10:07 pm



===


ku telah miliki
rasa indahnya perihku
rasa hancurnya harapku
kau lepas cintaku
rasakan abadi
sekalipun kau mengerti
sekalipun kau pahami
berpikirku salah mengertimu



aku hanya ingin
kau tahu
besarnya cintaku
tingginya khayalku bersamamu
tuk lalui waktu yg tersisa kini
di setiap hariku
di sisa akhir nafas hidupku


walaupun semua
hanya ada dalam mimpiku
hanya ada dalam khayalku
ku lewati itu


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fari-ehsanz
12 June 2009 @ 11:04 pm









To this lil angel, who'd never disappoint.






Lovee.


 
 
 
Current Location: paediatric alley
Current Mood: contentcontent
 
 
fari-ehsanz
11 June 2009 @ 12:36 am


At some point, you have to make a decision.
Boundaries don't keep other people out, they fence you in.
Life gets messier.
You can waste your life drawing lines,
Or you can live your life crossing them.

But there are some lines that are way too dangerous to cross,
If you're willing to throw caution to the wind
And take a chance...



Time waits for no man.
Time heals all wounds.
All any of us can want, is more time.


Time to stand up.



Time to grow up. 


Time to let go..



 
 
fari-ehsanz
06 June 2009 @ 11:54 pm




Time passes.
Even when it seems impossible.
Even when each tick of the second hand aches like pulse of blood behind bruise.
It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls.


Each time that i opened my eyes to the morning light and realised i'd lived through another night, was a surprise to me. After the surprising wore off, my heart would start to race, and palms would sweat; i couldnt really breathe again until i gotten up and acertained that he had survived as well.



But when i was able to concentrate on my normal life- If my life was ever normal again- this upset me.

I missed him horribly.


 




 
 
fari-ehsanz
02 June 2009 @ 08:58 pm




Like annie said;
"the uncertainty stinging clear.
 the unhappiness sets in.
 All the anger and disappointments.
 First numbness. Then weakness. The heart cannot lie anymore.
 It is unhappy. No matter how hard I fight.
 I don't know where to begin.
 Where do I stand as compared to all?
 I've been blinded by passion, so I thought.
 But slowly, as the heartache and suppressed psychotic thoughts sets in, it slowly fades away.
 I want to leave. I just cannot do this anymore.
 It is too much for me to handle. It has been far too long.
 God help me believe. Help me remember why I was here in the first place.
 I shall and cannot lift myself up any longer.
 It is far too depressing. "




 
 
fari-ehsanz
26 May 2009 @ 11:06 pm
 let me free.
 
 
fari-ehsanz
18 March 2009 @ 11:10 pm



Johor over last wkend was totally draining. I haven felt so tired for the longest time, i swear. Lucky for us, (very lucky indeed) Attar and dad was kind enough to give us a ride back. *phew  (-_-'). And i rather have him to drive even it takes 2hrs of jam shit from the checkpt to get anywhere close, coz i've got all the time in the world to spare.



Mission not accomplished. I've tried means and ways to convince myself. Still trying..



I'm glad its wed. Coz its off day for me tmr and as promised, movie shopping dinner ++ ok?! Haa.



I want to come back and play hockey. Im going to buy myself a new stick 
to start all over.
Yes..

Start all over, again.








 
 
Current Mood: draineddrained